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Women Writers Need Women Writers by Wendy Pratt

When I first started writing this article I thought it was going to be about feminism and the modern woman, and how women writers struggle to get published.

But that’s not my experience of being a poet. There have been times, admittedly, when I have sent work to journals that have a very masculine appearance and been rejected; but that’s not about me being a woman, that’s about me being a writer. All writers get rejected. I mean constantly rejected. We are such a dysfunctional group of people that a massive part of our own self-esteem is written on little slips of paper that more often than not make us feel like we are not good enough. We accept that knock back because at some point a little piece of paper arrives that says not only are you definitely good enough for that publication, but you are really good at what you do. And that’s an amazing feeling.

At the moment, I’m in the ‘I’m good at what I do’ phase of the cycle. I found out last week that Flarestack Poets are publishing my next pamphlet, Lapstrake. I was overjoyed to receive the email as I was starting to lose confidence. The poems for this pamphlet are a bit different. A lot of them are structured – one is an ancient Norse form called a Drottkveat, and the pamphlet has a series of free verse poems which talk about my daughter’s death, my grief and my suicidal thoughts. It also has poems written in the voice of a disturbed Norse sea Goddess and a sestina written in the voice of a dead Minke whale. So a bit of a mixed bag, really.

Every writer (and I imagine most people working in the arts) worries about whether they are good enough. When I read Sylvia Plath’s journals and Ted Hughes’s letters, and interviews with big names, there is a common thread. Even if they are competition winners, if they are published by Faber and Faber, if they run writing courses for other writers, at some point they are worrying that they are not good enough. And it gets worse the more you have published. I was much more nervous over the ‘difficult second collection’ than I was about my first. Or was I? Publication number three is no different. Here’s what I fretted about when writing the poems for the new pamphlet:

  • that the Matilda poems were too personal and that made them too difficult to understand
  • that the Matilda poems were not personal enough
  • that there was too much structured work
  • that I’m not very good at structured work
  • that I am, after all, a fraud who can’t write for toffee
  • that choosing to use the sea and the movement of the sea as a metaphor for movement and distance sounds like I’m up my own arse
  • that people will laugh at me
  • that I am too fat to do readings
  • that I have some how now exhausted my writing potential, and will probably never write anything of worth again
  • that everyone on Facebook is doing better than me
  • that I haven’t won a big competition yet so I must be pretty rubbish
  • that I should put more structured poems in
  • that I don’t want the pressure of being a writer

During the process I was also often thinking this:

  • these Matilda poems are the best I’ve ever written; I want to talk and write about her and love her again through the poems and I am achieving that; I have seen people cry when I have read these poems, so they must be good
  • this is the best collection I have written, the theme works well, the poems are coming together nicely and with strength
  • there’s a real personality to this work, I think the different voices work really well
  • I’ve finally mastered structure, I enjoy it, and it reflects my own voice even constrained – in fact I like the constraint as it brings out a different sort of movement
  • all I ever want to do is write, I would be happy if I could write from morning til night
  • I am totally rocking that 60s-style dress for this reading
  • I am definitely on the brink of winning a big competition
  • I don’t think I will ever exhaust my writing potential because I have such a good writing routine
Illustration by Sally Jane Thompson

Illustration by Sally Jane Thompson

For a long time I failed to realise that the crushing feelings of self-doubt (the first list), and the constant cycle of feeling good, feeling crap, feeling good, were common to people working in the arts. I thought it was just me. It was only when I joined a poetry group and talked to other writers that I realised this is the norm for writers.

I read an article on women and confidence, recently, in The Guardian. It talked about ‘Imposter Syndrome’: “a psychological phenomenon in which people are unable to internalize their accomplishments. Despite external evidence of their competence, those with the syndrome remain convinced that they are frauds and do not deserve the success they have achieved”. (O’Conner, 2014) When I read that description I felt a sudden turn in my stomach. Of course that’s me, but it’s also most of the writers I know, too.

Is it a female phenomenon? Like Hilary Devey I’m not 100 per cent convinced. I think the arts attract people who are already a bit fragile and any neurosis nests down in the brain of a fragile person. But I can’t be sure. Most of the writers I know are women, most of the writers I read are women. There’s nothing sexist in that. I don’t hate male writers. I read and enjoy them, but not equally. It’s just that, as a woman, I connect much more easily to women writers. As we all do, I search out shared experience.

So why do women writers need women mentors? It’s not because of inequality in the writing world. If you look at poetry journals there are pretty much equal numbers of women poets being published. In other genres, well, women short story writers are standing their ground in what is, traditionally, a male dominated genre, as are female novelists. The cut throat world of journalism is still male dominated but women journalists produce some of the best journalism.

I have only been called a ‘poetess’ once in my career. And the gentleman was very sweet and old so I didn’t rebuke him. I am not an anything ‘ess’. I was not a scientess, I have not been a writeress. I have been a waitress once but let’s leave that memory buried and repressed, my customer skills were never the best.

Having said all this, like a microcosm of the workplace in general, the top jobs in the arts still go to more men than women. I’ve not counted but I get the strong impression that there are more male editors than female editors. Women are going to be the underdogs for a long time to come. Things are changing, but they haven’t altered to the point that we no longer need to keep climbing.

Back in the 60s and 70s, women became more passionate about what they could achieve as a gender; we valued women who were making headway in science, literature, education, business, politics and astronomy. We broke through and girls wanted to be like those outstanding women. There was camaraderie, women wanted to reach places they had never been and we saw it as a joint achievement when we got there.

When I see young people (girls in particular) striving to be ‘famous’, I can’t help but feel that we have created a monster. This is due in part to privatising education and making it a domain of the privileged. What sort of aspirations does a working class girl have if their parents can’t afford to send them to university? We have removed the chance for them to work their way up. But there are also fewer women role models, and what happens when a girl can’t see a woman who has achieved something, when the doors to achieving that became so much harder to open because of financial constraints? Then the glint of ‘fame’ seems like an easy way out of a life of drudgery. Unfortunately and somewhat shockingly, fame is not about skill any more – there is a distinction between being successful and being famous. Success denotes that you have become successful at something, fame is just being adored and being paid for it. Of course you can be successful and famous, but we should be celebrating success and passing on the tools of success and achievement.

Often a writing career is not something that happens on a traditional lineage; school, sixth form, uni, writer. What happened with me (and with a lot of writers I know) was this : school, uni, career, sudden realisation that you want to do something entirely different, writer. So it’s as important to give guidance to those ‘grown ups’ who are struggling along as it is to give the guidance to youngsters.

I have been working as a mentor for the WoMentoring project of late. I’ve given advice to two amazing and talented women writers and helped them to develop a critical eye. I found the process fascinating. I’m pretty sure that I learned more from the experience than my mentees. Both of the women were physically isolated and isolated by circumstance. They have young families and they were both unsure of how to progress with their writing, how to submit, what they should be aiming for etc. It was stuff I wish someone had helped me with when I was just setting out.

I was lucky in that, when I was just starting out, I was able to travel to poetry groups and readings and meet people who gave encouragement and guidance. That gave me the confidence to move forward. As a woman, it was important to see women writers who had been where I was, moved forward and made a career out of their work. And it was important for me to recognise in others this sense of anxiety over one’s own work.

I jumped at the chance to work with the Womentoring project, it is so needed and such a good idea. Now I want to spread the word. I want women to support women and I want to be a part of something that celebrates the achievements of women.

By Wendy Pratt

Illustrations by Sally Jane Thompson

 

Useful links: Lottie O’Conor; Guardian Professional

For more information about the Womentoring project, follow this link: http://womentoringproject.co.uk/

 

About Wendy Pratt

Wendy Pratt

Wendy Pratt was born in Scarborough, North Yorkshire in 1978. She now lives just outside Filey. She is a graduate of Hull University where she studied Biomedical science. Wendy works for the local NHS hospital as a Microbiologist. She has recently completed her BA in English literature and will be embarking on her MA in creative writing this year.

She has enjoyed publication of her poetry in Acumen, Snakeskin, Prole, Other Poetry, The Interpreter’s House, Pennine Platform The Frogmore papers and Envoi amongst others.

Wendy was asked to co-judge Prole’s first poetry competition, something which she enjoyed immensely. Wendy’s first poetry pamphlet, Nan Hardwicke Turns into a Hare was published by Prolebooks in late 2011 and is selling well. She was delighted to see it reviewed favourably in the Times Literary Supplement, Other Poetry and several other publications. Her second, full size collection, Museum Pieces, also published by Prolebooks launched in January 2014 and is selling well. Her third collection, a pamphlet entitled Lapstrake will be published by Flarestack Poets in 2015.

Wendy is poetry correspondent for Northern Soul where she writes a regular column called Northern Accents. She is also a member of the Womentoring project, offering free mentoring to women writers who would otherwise not have access to it. Wendy is available for guest reading slots, she has read at Poetry by Heart, Words on Tap and will be reading at several other events including the Bridlington Festival 2014.

To learn more about Wendy Pratt check out her website http://www.wendypratt.com/index.htm

Or follow her on Twitter https://twitter.com/wondykitten

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Jimmetta Carpenter is the Editor and Creator of the Free Fall Literary E-Zine and the Spoken Like A Queen E-Zine. She has dedicated herself to the power of the words and given into her passion for writing and has been writing poetry officially since the age of ten. She has a book of poetry titled “The Art of Love” published through lulu.com under the pen name Gemini. She is currently finishing up with her first novel and already working on her second. In 1998 she had her poem “Rest In Peace” published in an anthology put out by the International Library of Poetry and in the Spring of 2007 will have another poem titled “Through The Eyes of an Angel” published in another anthology also put out by the International Library of Poetry. She was also awarded the Editor’s Choice Award for that poem as well. She is looking forward to having a very long and rewarding career in writing and hopes that through living out her dreams she can inspire someone else out there to realize theirs. Her advice to other up and coming authors is to NEVER stop believing N your dreams and don’t ever be afraid to dream big. Jimmetta can be contacted by sending her an e-mail at freefall_lbp@yahoo.com or jcladyluv@yahoo.com.

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